the bluspice92'

Music of choice--> All in a day

"If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you." - Fred Devito

How relevant of a subject...currently trying to workout 5 days a week and I actually feel good about myself. I know it will take discipline and hard work however, I feel as though my thought process needs to catch up with my physical appearance. Ever heard the saying, "You never realize how much you've changed physically until you look at a picture." Well, that my friends is what left me horrified. Literally gained 30 lbs since pregnancy. Right when I thought that my body was going down the right path, mother nature runs me over with a child inside of me LOL well, it wasn't as harsh as I'm making it out to be but; you get the picture RIGHT?!?
I'm currently eating unhealthy and once or twice a day / little to no H20 and I desperately need to step my game up in order to achieve my goals and live to be a better ME all around. Within this week I will be starting my juice cleanse that I failed time and time before. However, practice makes perfect so LETS TRY THIS AGAIN! 
Being motivated and pushed by our trainer (boyfriend's brother) is actually uplifting. I enjoy workouts with people that are positive and motivated as well. 

 "ABS start in the kitchen and not in the weight room" 

--> so I'm told ;)

MUSIC of choice --> promises- jhene aiko

"The most precious jewels you'll ever have around your neck are the arms or your children" -unkown.

On this beautiful sunny /chilly Sunday afternoon, started a lookbook for my daughter #persaeusdiaries. I'll add the link in as soon as its completed.
Looks that will be included -->

I'm currently experiencing insomnia @2:43 am on this cold Sunday morning. Since I'm in the midst of creating my daughter's look book, why not blog about my beautiful monster. When no one is there to listen..blog it lol well atm all I hear is her snores since she's sick, she's a hot mess. My baby is amazingly funny and smart, (what parent doesn't say that?) RIGHT!?! Well that's none of my business. She's everything I've ever wanted yet a lil more and it's lowkey scary. She has an attitude and personality compared to a 5 year old. Her current active words are "stop it / dadeh / mommeh)  She's an extremely active 1 year old and the lazy part of me misses her at 2-5 months (pre- crawling stage)...She is now a Tasmanian devil. It takes a lot of energy to keep up with her, yet Im already knowing that it only gets worse from here on out.
#persaeusdiaries was a late bloomer as far as her motor skills are involved. I believe she started crawling at 6 months, she didn't start walking until a lil before her 1st birthday.
Apparently my photos aren't being uploaded via my cell phone so I'll post pics later....
Her first steps were pure joy and now she wobbles from side to side (my penguin baby)!
She's sneaky and aggressive. I find pros and cons within both traits, ones worth arguing over. All I want is for her to be healthy/ caring / loving / kind / motivated / respectful && everything else will fall into place.
I've always been the parent to mention the fact that my child doesn't need to have a HUGE 1st birthday. 1st birthdays are usually held to please everyone that attends. Truthfully..I don't owe everyone else in my life a damn thing. My priority and mindset is always based on her needs 1st. I'm not about to spend my hard earned money to host a party and cater to everyone else. I could get into detail but I'm sure you catch my drift. I think a 3rd birthday is perfect because then my baby understands and grasps the whole point of having birthdays and celebrating life. So..for her 1st birthday we hosted a little get together at my daughter's cousin's house. I'm a perfectionist if you haven't already realized it. Therefore, if i plan something..IT GOES AS PLANNED!!!! so you know i had to do the most (considering the most you could do for a small get together) && the theme was pretty in pink / garden theme. The subject was LED LIGHTS / many different DIY PROJECTS. Overall, I thought I did a wonderful / beautiful job.
AGAIN...my phone won't allow me to post pics ..stay tuned for detailed pics....

 Music of choice-->To love and die- jhene aiko

 "In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take." -unknown

August of 2014

My daughter #persaeusdiaries and I moved from Honolulu to Oregon. This must've been the move of a lifetime for me. Its a huge stepping stone and i'm in the midst of knowing if it was the right move. 50% of me is screaming, "You did great;" while the other 50% is contemplating on running away. :( Yes, I know..How selfish and ignorant of me to decide so quickly whether or not it is the right thing to do.
I must've jumped a few steps ahead in my story..sorry. Let me slow things down and introduce you to the source of my big leap of faith. In 2013 I discovered my pregnancy after 2 months of being pregnant... ooops to all the liquor that was abused within those months SMH however, the point of mentioning that is purely to show that it didn't affect my child one bit unless thats where she gets her HUNGER like no other from. lol she's truly many characters in one. After giving birth Oct. 20th 2013, my plan was set. I was going to move with my daughter to Oregon to be with her father as well as starting another milestone in our family story. He attends Western Oregon University (if you were wondering, "Why Oregon?" lol So, now that you're caught up thus far...shall i resume where i left off at? The rest shall be in a blog of its own :)
A month after I gave birth, a close family friend asked me if I wanted to work with her as a caregiver since I had experience in the medical field. I happily agreed and soon enough found work. I was breast feeding since giving birth so it was hard for me to make the decision to go back to work. Luckily for me, my boss and clients were extremely cool and allowed me to take some time out of my shift to pump and store milk for my child. The jobs ranged from $15-$20 / hr. I was too juiced to be able to provide for my daughter alone and to save money on the side for our new beginning in Oregon. Our plans finally came to light in june of 2014 when I booked my ticket along with my sister's ticket. My plan was to have her with us so that she could do all of my dirty work and walk up and down the airplane aisle with #persaeusdiaries while I chill and watch a show on the digiplayer. LOL a mother could only dream hehe, well it seems as though she has surprised us once again and instead of us caring for her...Asian passengers loved her and wanted to carry her up and down the aisle. I was stalking them the entire time...not to worry.
To cut that story short, we took a detour to Oakland CA. Arrived September 2014' where we met up with my baby'love and his side of the family. The rest shall be blogged separately (details are LIFE) ;)